prisLOVESandrew

2010-10-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

My blog is so dead! School just started, life's still the same. I need to be more discipline when it comes to study but I just can't. ARGH! I don't want to waste any more time and my effort. I really need to buck up and get over with it.

Life has been good minus those unhappy times caused by some people. Seriously I just hate it to the max! I think all my friends know my problems. Sick and tired of all the nonsense coming from you. I know we should give one another some free time and to be alone. I'm trying very hard.

Japan trip in Dec is confirm. I can't wait :D So long since I went on a faraway holiday with my cousins. But sad to say, my grandparents won't be going with us ): Might be going to Genting with cousins during Christmas too (:

Till here!

what a day

2010-08-08T16:12:00.003+08:00

Am required to work yesterday. After work, took a train back home where boy is still sleeping(: I took a nap before we headed out to Orchard for shopping. Can I say yesterday was the first time he is so willing to bring me to Orchard for shopping! We arrived at Orchard around 1645. Went to have our late lunch before we started on our shopping spree. First stop was at Taka. Wanted to use up my vouchers. Bought a pair of sandals and baby bought a pair of slipper. Since we still have vouchers left, boy used it up to buy a Levis top as I didn't see any thing that caught my eye. Left for Somerset313 as I wanted to go Forever21. Went to get some drinks first. From then, I realized baby's LV wallet was missing! Both us us we panic! Hurriedly walked back to Taka, hopefully thinking that we left it there. Went to the cashier where we made our last payment. Thank god, I really left it there. The cashier told me that I left it at the side and one customer who wanted to make payment saw it and handed it over to the staff at the cashier. Really thank so much to that kind-hearted person. If not of that, I need to used my pay to get him a LV wallet bag. After collecting his wallet, walked back to Somerset 313 and continue shopping. Shopped at Far East and Wisma as well. End our shopping day at 2300 (:

2010-06-11T03:18:00.001+08:00

Life as usual. Have nothing much to do at home. Going through the same routine each and everyday. On 8th June was dad's first year anniversary in the lunar calendar. Went to pay respect to dad. I was so worried that mum will break down and I'm really glad she didn't. If not I will be an idiot on how to calm her down. I really need a JOB! No income = no shopping & outings with friends. I REALLY NEED TO SHOP SO BADLY. It's GSS now & I have yet to shop. Some kind souls please date me and bring me out for shopping. THANKS :D

2010-06-06T00:12:00.003+08:00

Life has been better. At least I'm not that worried with mum. I have peace at mind now. Really glad that it's a mild _______. Thanks to people who keep her in your prayers. Daddy, please bless mummy with speedy recovery and good health. Have been looking after mum since she discharged. It's a bit tiring but it's my duty to do so. I'm having my holidays now but I'm still jobless. I need a job!!!

Thanks to everyone who stand by me, giving me the strength to stay strong. Thanks to my relatives and friends for all your love & care. Really appreciate it. Boy, really thanks so much for accompanying me to visit my mum everyday when she was hospitalized even though you are feeling tired after your training. Thanks for staying over just to keep me accompanied. Thanks for everything you have done for me during this tough period. I love you, my boy, relatives & friends. LOVES!!

2010-05-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

I don't feel happy on my birthday:( I hate my life at the moment. Life's bad! I don't know what to say but I just hope mummy get well soon!!! I NEED A BREAK! Much thanks to those who were there for me. Many lovessss!!!

2010-05-08T16:58:00.002+08:00

Yea! My precious boy has ORD yesterday! 1 year 10 months just passed by it a wink of eyes. Felt happy for him as he has been counting down since he had served NS. In between these 1 year 10 months, many things haf happened. Most importantly is that I no longer have to wait anymore(: I hope our relationship is extemely secured and stable by now(: On the other hand, I no longer have to drop him at his camp and drove all the way back from Yew Tee alone. He always try his best during his nights out. I no longer have to look forward to weekend to get to meet him. Everything's over.

Exams exams & more exams! I really can't wait for 13 may which will be my last paper. So far I know i have done badly for my 2 papers which was over. Sigh~ 3 more papers to go & I can enjoy all I want. Many events coming up after exams. Dad's 1 year death anniversary): bithdays events, going out with my girls and house warming! Can't wait for house warming to catch up with relatives and friends.

STRESS!

2010-04-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

I'm really feeling so STRESS right now. I don't know how am I going to do for my papers which I'm totally unprepared. I really hope we can move in this week. I really cannot concentrate in the midst of shifting. Sigh. There's so many thoughts in me right now. I'm thinking whether I should continue if I can't get through this year. STRESS is killing me!! I need someone! I can't take it anymore. This is the path I choose myself so hang on there PRISCILLA!

hidden & disheartened truth

2010-03-30T20:51:00.011+08:00

I need a space to express myself so badly! I'm going to explode sooner or later. I can't take it anymore )': I have enough of all this shit from the both of you. I'm very sensitive to words. So what if both of you are my ..... Both of you don't even show respect to us & why should I respect you? If both of you want to say something bad about her just say it right in front of our faces. Don't be a backstabber. I think both of you are still having the olden days mindset which is so WRONG. She is your own .... I think both of you are far too bias until it is so obvious. I have been tolerating this for very long. Not a few months but it's YEARS. She knew it but she just kept quite all along.

HELLO! What's wrong with bringing the fruits back to eat after we have used it to pray dad. I don't see anything wrong with it. Both of you think that it will bring the bad luck to the family? Both of you can jolly well don't eat. Did I say it's a MUST that both of you must eat? COME ON! Please WAKE UP YOUR MIND! He is also your .... in the past & now even he's no longer around. I don't wish to say all this but I really can't take it any longer. Both of you think that we are rich after dad passed away. Both of you think we want to stay here? It's because of the failed business and to end up in such state. Don't welcome us to stay here in the first place if i don't even have the intention to. We didn't even look down on both of you. Those are just your imaginations! Get the facts RIGHT! I feel and wanted to tell both of you off but I still controlled myself and respect both of you. Don't make me tell everything to her. I don't promise you she won't be angry. Everything are caused by the both of you Don't worry. We are going to shift back SOON! Think we don't want to? Always saying that she is lazy to unpack? Did both of you spare a thought for her that she needs to work on weekdays & Saturday. She only get to get 1 Saturday off in a month. Please spare a thought for her. She's no longer young but she still need to work so hard for us. Sigh! I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THIS!

Everything falls because we have lost you. No one can understand how we feel. Life is so different without you. Come back to our dreams! I really miss you so so so badly )':

Thanks boy for understanding me that day when I suddenly broke into tears. You asked me what was on my mind but I just remained silent. I knew you knew what was on my mind. Thanks for cheering me up & always being there for me ♥♥♥

Don't bother to ask me anything about this entry.

I need to stop crying every now & then. Be strong PRISCILLA

2010-03-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I update. Life was as usual. CNY came and gone. Didn't enjoy ): After my preliminary exams, went for a short getaway trip with boy and his family. Enjoyed my time with him. It's high time for me to stop slacking! I should get studying for main exams next week. Can some one just force me? I don't want to regret after exams. I must not disappoint dad. Anyway, our house was ready for shift in quite long ago. Most of our belongings have been shifted over and everything is still in a mess over there right now. Hopefully we can settled down and shift in to stay there before labour day (:

I miss daddy so badly. Whenever I think of you, I still can't control my tears )': Will be visiting you this Sat. I need to be stronger.

2010-01-01T02:18:00.002+08:00

Welcome 2010 (: I wish & hope 2010 will be a better year for everyone. I wish for many things in 2010 and I hope it will come true. 2009 had been the worse year so far in my life. I lost some one so precious to me in my entire life. He changed my life completlg since then. I see no meaning in life but I have tried my very best to hang on. It's a bad start of 2010 to mention things like that. Anyway, Happy New Year to all. May everyone have a happy 2010 ahead (:

Short getaway

2009-12-02T21:40:00.005+08:00

It seems that I'm lazy to keep this space updated. I'm somehow get sick of blogging. Anyway, life has been the same. School on weekdays while weekends was spent at boy's place. Busy with my house stuffs as well. Hopefully renovation can be completed these few weeks and we can shift in before CNY. On the other hand, I don't feel like shifting in. I will be bored without grandparents ):

On the brighter side of life, the long awaiting short getaway to Genting was finally here. Trip was awesome minus the timeswhen 1 of my cousins was SICK! First time taking plane to KL and taking a van up to Genting. 3 days 2 nights was well spent with my family members. This time round, daddy is not with us. The truth is that I still can't get over it. Sad issues aside.

Pictures time

hectic

2009-11-04T16:24:00.002+08:00

I spent my weekdays in school & doing nothing at home while weekends are usually spent with mum moving around to get stuffs for our house when boy is away. Renovation has started. I can't wait to see the new look of my house.

Another 3 days and you will be back. I miss you so much. Can't wait for weekdays to end soon!!

feelings

2009-10-25T02:22:00.001+08:00

I have this aching feeling
Deep inside my heart,
Because of how I love you
Is tearing me apart.

I want to have you with me
To hold me close at night,
To tell me that you love me
And things will be alright.

So if I want you here with me
Dream is all i do,
And you will share my feelings
And know that I Love You

When a day ends, I'm one day closer to seeing you.

13 days

):

2009-10-20T22:37:00.005+08:00

Time was well spent with boy since Thursday till today morning. My boy left for Australia this morning ): Sent him to the airport & waited for him to collect his boarding pass. He accompanied for less than 15 minutes before sending me to the lift. A kiss from him before we bid goodbye. Drove to school. Since I was early & Joanna have not reach school, I took half an hour of rest in the car. When to have our brunch upon her arrival. Slacked while waiting for Mandy to reach school before heading for our lecture. Was feeling so restless for the lecture. Lecture ended at 1500. Drove home alone and watched TV & was glued to my laptop till 1800.Went to fetch mum from her office & went to our house for some discussion with the deisgner. Back home, shower & took my dinner. Am waiting for boy to call. I just hope he's fine there. I'm feeling so TIRED today!! Waiting & waiting for boy's call & his return.

18 days. I miss you ):

):

2009-10-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

trust

2009-10-15T02:05:00.005+08:00

Is it that I don't earn any trust from you since the day we got together? You always keep me in the dark which I hates. You don't tell me what is on your mind? I'm really speechless. I don't like to see things which I don't wish to see. In fact, I just hope that you will tell me personally & not me myself see things accidently. I have been tolerating this issue for very long. What if we really get together in future? Which means I got to tolerate this for the rest of my life? This will affect greatly on our family. It's high time for you to learn to speak up to me. Communication is extremely in a relationship. 5 more days & you will be leaving me. What I have in mind was to spend this few days fruitfully with you, but this is like not what you have in mind. I'm really afraid and have the phobia when you are away. This feeling is really hard for me to overcome but I will still try my best.

To my dearest bestf

2009-09-24T01:53:00.004+08:00

Dear bestf,

I know it's hard to accept the facts & let go of the past. I know how much it is hurting you so deep now as I have gone through that before. It is impossible for you to forget everything in a couple of days so do take your time to get out of this agonize situation. Do not bottled up your feelings at this moment. It is alright for you to let out all your tears for this week only (*hehe*). After this week, I really don't want to see you crying anymore ok? I know I'm not good in words of cheering you up and I can't be there when you need someone physically, but I am always here to lend you my shoulder as well ears. Do not hesitate or feel shy to approach me. I will try my best to make you feel better. Without some one around, you still have all your FRIENDS! Your friends ♥ you like i do ♥♥ Don't feel lost anymore because you still have your friends to guide you around.

Cheer up my bestf. You have my support all the way. Hope to see you in your usual cheerful, hyperactive & happy-go-lucky self once again (:

♥Pris

Lost

2009-09-09T16:38:00.002+08:00

It's just a post on my ranting. Just ignore it if you think is NONSENSE! Just leave this website!

Out of a sudden, images of dad flashed back. I felt so lost without the guidance of dad. I will never forget the days when I visited dad at the mortuary. It really hurts me. I have never felt so sad in my entire life before. Every now and then I will think of those days I have spent with dad. I still think it is not enough. I really regret not having to spend more time with him. I really miss you, Dad. Sigh

2009-09-06T19:09:00.002+08:00

Hapoy Birthday to you, my beloved Daddy! I hope you are having a great time in another world. I still miss you!

Went to visit you with mum, sister & Andrew today. I can't seems to control my tears. Just hope you're doing fine up there. I love you!

100th Days

2009-08-27T20:56:00.003+08:00

Today marks the 100th day Daddy had left us. Went to visit Daddy in the morning with grandparents, mum & sister. After everything was done, drove mum to work & we went home. Was surfing the net the moment I reach home. I was on cloud nine the moment boy called telling me that he will be booking out as he clear 1 day off for tomorrow. I love long weekends! Took my dinner & fetched boy from Tampines Interchange & back to his house! Am rotting at his house now while he's gaming! Shall go & do my POA exerise.

Daddy, I still cannot control my tears whenever I visit you. I still miss you a lot. You have yet to enter my dreams. Whenever I'm alone, I tends to think how you are doing in another world? Are you leading a good life? I wonder what you are doing there? Daddy, can you please come to my dreams & tell me? I really miss you! I wish I have more time with you but everything is too late! Much regrets I have since the day you left ):

2009-08-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

This week is coming to an end soon. Boy managed to clear 1 day off on Friday which means I get to meet him on Thursday (: He went for soccer training on Thursday evening while I waited for him to be back at his house. Went to watch movie & went for pool session with his friends on Friday. School for me on Saturday early morning ): Soccer match in the evening & back home. Just another day to relax for today. Going to sent him to camp & driving back home alone soon.

A brief entry. Till here (:

Reflections

2009-08-15T20:32:00.004+08:00

School was still the same. August is a month whereby 5 of my family members will be celebrating their birthday:) Monday's dinner at Shenton House was filling & awesome. Dinner while having to sing k. Enjoy the the time with my family members. But this time round was without my dad around:( Daddy i still miss you badly.

I still don't understand why you still can't come to sense after losing someone which was so close to you & me. Most of us thought that you will change after this had happened. But NO, everyone was wrong including myself. All of us were so disappointed with you. You are changing from bad to worse in fact. You throw temper at them whenever you can't find your stuffs. When they talked to you nicely, you just ignore or even talk back with a bad attitude. You shouldn't be so spendthrift anymore. Once in awhile is alright. Anyway whatever they do is for your own good but you just find them a burden. I'm alright if you want to lie to me because I believed that daddy is looking after every little step his family is taking from high up above. Daddy will be very disappointed & heartache to see you like this. I don't know when you will think & reflect on yourself. I really regard you as my sister although I threw my temper at you at times. If I don't regard you as my sister, I won't be caring for you at all already. It really makes me feel so sad to see you like this.

I'm not typing in this space to pin you down but is because I CARE for you. If you want to scold, hate, don't talk to me, I'm alright with it. I just hope that you will change.(:

2009-08-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

School had just started on Monday. School was still ok. But those modules I'm taking are already killing me on the first week of school. I'm thankful & happy to have 2 of my best friends to attend school with me (: Besides school, there is nothing else. Weekends are meant to spend with lover boy :D That's all. I can't wait to shift in our own house because I can have my own room! (: But I miss staying with my grandparents ):

2009-07-20T00:13:00.005+08:00

I just don't want to..........!

I wish for a happier family.
I wish to feel more loved.
I wish to be pampered.
I wish to move on.

I wish for many things.

2009-07-08T13:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was dad 49 days he had past away.I just miss him so much! I hope those religious beliefs are not true. I really cannot accept it that Daddy will forget us. I don't want this to happen. I still have not move on and I don't know when can I move on. Daddy, I just miss you so much. Sigh, no matter what Daddy wil be remembered by his family & friends around him. Daddy, you will be remembered by me!

2009-06-29T00:33:00.002+08:00

Everyday is just an ordinary day. Did nothing all day long. Weekdays are spend at home by surfing the net & watching TV. Weekends are spend with boy. I have been sick since last week & I have yet to recover ): My throat just hurts so bad.

I don't want to accept the fact that dad will not recognize us after 49 days & he have to go his way. I really cannot accept it & it hurts me so badly. Daddy, please come to our dreams. I really want you to talk to me. Sigh )': I still cannot get over it & move on. I really don't know what to do. Daddy, no matter what, I only want you to remember us & RIP.

2009-06-15T02:22:00.003+08:00

Ever since boy returned from Thailand, I have been spending my everyday with him. He need to book in today ): But never mind, he still have quite a number of days of leave to clear which means I can spend ample time with him. Life is so bored without boy around. At least with him around, I tend not to think so much.

At times when I have got nothing to busy with, I always starts to stare into the air and think of my dad. 3 weeks have passed, I still can't catch hold of reality. I still think of daddy every now and then and tears will roll down. Sigh~ Daddy, you really really left us so sudden. Daddy, you have yet to come to my dreams and talk to me. I really miss you so much )': Whenever I looked through the photos we took in USA and also my graduation photos, I just can't hold back my tears. You told me you wanted to attend my graduation so badly but you can't because you are still in South Africa. You also told me to take more photos on my graduation with mummy & sister so that you can imposed a picture of yourself inside. You also told me you will rushed back to Singapore on the 25 May 2009 just to celebrate my 21st with me. But things was turned the other way round. Daddy, don't worry, I'm not putting the blame on you. All I want now is that you RIP. Daddy, I know you are watching us from above & give us your blessings.

Daddy, I love and miss you lots.

2009-06-09T19:38:00.002+08:00

Went to pay a visit to dad at the temple in the morning with mum, sister, boy & my dad's brother. The moment mum saw daddy's picture, she just broke down. I can't help but broke down as well. I don't know why I sense that my heart was really broken & I felt lost when I saw daddy's picture. The priest said that this feeling means that daddy was right beside us. The priest told us not to cry as daddy don't want to see us in this state but he was not able to tell us because he was not be able to speak to us.

Daddy, I still miss you a lot )':

Video Of Eulogy

2009-06-04T14:16:00.004+08:00

Eulogy to Daddy from me.

2009-06-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

Daddy, I hope you did hear my eulogy. I just can't stop missing you ):

We will always remember the moment when we learnt Daddy will never appear again. Our last encounter was a month ago, while he depart for South Africa training. We were so sure he would come home, however this appearance farewell bid in the Airport was the last …..forever in our memory.

When he called us from South Africa, we realize Daddy was counting the days to come home and be with us. We wish we could have had time to say goodbye ….but draw some comfort that Daddy’s life ended while he was doing his lifelong passion, skydiving.

Daddy was very passionate about his military career especially skydiving. He wanted us to share his passion and 2 months ago, he brought me for a tandem jump in USA. It was then that I truly understood what sparked the passion in his entire life; and I understood my Daddy in a way I had never before.

If Daddy’s passion was skydiving, his life was us. He had always been our rock, our pillar and our guiding light. He was also an amazing husband and an even greater father.

Daddy had always been a traditional man, believing that the man’s job was to provide for the family ; while the woman raised the kids and kept the household in order. But his traditional values were eroded by his love for both of us. Very often, he would clean the house despite after his tiring work or mummy was too busy with her work.

Daddy will never forget the wedding anniversary. Every year, he would surprise mummy with a gift or take the family out to celebrate. It wasn’t just a ritual or tradition to him, he cared so much about mummy that he would put an incredible amount of effort into finding the perfect gift ; A few years ago, he got mummy the purple gold bracelet which she loved and had wanted for a long time. It was a surprising gift to her and Daddy can read mummy mind, in every way he could. In a few months time, daddy and mummy should have been celebrating their 30 years of marriage and I’m sure that if he could be here, Daddy could once again surprise her with the perfect gift.

Daddy always told us that he will never compromise proper education for both of us. He always encouraged us to improve our knowledge through taking up relevant skills courses ; and we must learn passionately into the things we had an interest in. I remember when my sister failed her O’s level, Daddy did not blame nor scold her. To the contrary, he told her that it was all right as long as she had tried her utmost. My Jie Jie decided she was not competent in study and decided to avenue to attain a diploma in make-up and cosmetics. Despite I can sense that Daddy was objecting within his thoughts, but for the love shower upon her, he made sure she knew what she was deciding, remain focus and gave her his blessings and provided a constant source of support and encouragement.

Besides providing us proper and sustaining education, making both of us happy will always made daddy happier. When my Jie Jie turned 21, he took it upon himself to co-ordinate every single detail, ensuring her rite of passage would be something she would treasure and remember forever. He took the pain to trace all my Jie Jie friends contact, ensure every invitation was sent. He also knew that Jie Jie always wanted a PSP dearly, and in typical Daddy fashion, he had to spoil her. One of the many regrets that I will have to live with is he won’t be around to see me turn 21 tomorrow.

My Daddy will never watch us walk along the Aisle when both of us get married, nor holding his grandchildren one day. My departing word for my beloved Daddy…….

Daddy, you have been a strength and pillar for both of us and the family. You have shower your love in a unique way, even though you have left us, we will be strong and uphold the bond you uniquely created, we promise that we will look after mummy and till some day, we shall meet again. Daddy, we miss you dearly.

2009-05-31T20:23:00.002+08:00

Daddy, we went to pay respect to you at Mandai Columbarium just now. Mummy, couldn't help but break down. I was lost for words at that moment and tears just rolled down. We still can't face the facts that you left us. Daddy, ever since the day you left us, I have been staring into blank space. Memories of us just flashed back every now and then. Daddy, I know you want to see us move on with life, but it really takes time. Daddy, I'm living in regrets now. I have so much to tell you but I don't even have the chance. There are more things we want to do together but not anymore. Daddy, why didn't you give us more time with you. Daddy, do watch us from above. You left a great impact in my life. Daddy, I miss you.

2009-05-31T20:14:00.004+08:00

Quoted from Janice's blog.

Happy 21st birthday my dear! :) I know this is probably the most difficult phase you've ever been through but hang in there, life will get better. He is a well respected man, we all can see that through the 3 days and it really warms my heart to know that there are so much more people that actually cares. Find solace in knowing that he had moved on to another world while doing something he loved. His lifelong passion. He must be grinning at you from above, because from where he is, he can see whatever little things you're doing and know every of your littlest secrets. Your Daddy will not only just walk you down the aisle one day, he will be the first to know that you're gonna get married and guide you through your marriage. He is secretly watching his little girl turn 21 today and he is giving you all the blessings that you can ever have in your life. Because his job is so huge that he can't stay here to do what he have to do, he needs to go somewhere higher so that he can watch over thousands and thousands of people at the same time from where he is now. I believe your Daddy had actually blessed me for my sports day today even as I was reminded of him before my run when my friends were passing the medicated oil(Yoko Yoko) around. Its scary how you'd actually watched me grow from a...........primary school girl (lets just not add too much details. :X) to who I am now and I believe, you'd actually subconsciously mould me into who I am today. There's so much I want to say and this space is too open for the world to see. But remember from the countless neoprints to the after-school-meet-up to East Point? Remember our meet up place? Those are the simplest thing that we've ever done that I'll never forget, ever. We have this bond that is so extraordinary that really, not anyone can have it overnight. As cliche as it can ever be, you know you've someone to turn to even if its at 5am in the morning when the whole world is fast asleep. I promise I'll wake up just for you. :) You've been an extremely strong girl and I'm really really proud of you, I'm sure your Daddy is too♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

P.S. wait for me to be done with the mOn'ster chinese then we can talk about anything under the sun again. :)

Quoted from my dearest cousin, Leng Jen

there are just so many things that happened over the past few days.good and the bad,which i wish would never happen in my life at all to start with.two seperate and totally different events,happened on one same day.i dont really have the mood to blog right now.but i am because i haven blogged in ages.im just so tired.very tired.mentally.i slept from 4 to 8 today in the afternoon.i could have continued sleeping.but decided not too.there so much i want to say.im aching inside somehow.it seems that things from now will change forever.i wore so many masks to school yesterday and today.i was so fake for the past two days.nobody knew what was burning deep down inside me.none of them had a clue what happen.nobody found out the truth.im a good actor arent i?pretending nothing has happen and carrying that smile on my face.acting as if the whole world is fine when actually it sucks to to max now.my exams are coming,in less than a week.so stressed for it,worrying like hell every single second.i know im not prepared.but do you think i want to think about all this?it's not my choice.it isnt.and im sure about it.my heart,is full of mixed feelings and confusion.on one hand,im trying to accept the truth,that happen so sudden.i cant believe it actually happened.i was so heartbroken.on the other,im trying to be indifferent to you.to kill and surpress the feelings that keeps trying to resurface.do you know how hard it is to tell myeslf not to think about it?all along i've been contemplating on giving up on the past,looking towards the future and live my life happily.i finally did it,after 5 months of pain.im over him and the relationships we had.i tried to accept both of you for who you two are.i somehow achieved that.slowly,bit by bit.what should i feel?what should i do?am i really over it?all those questions keep coming up.and something that happen really struck me.i cried for so long.wailing to be exact.in the bathroom in my room.i couldnt let anyone know because i dont want them to worry.i know i have to be strong,for myself and for the people around me.it was just so sudden.i realised you meant much more to me than i thought.i'll miss you a lot.everyone will miss you.i'll remember you for who you are and the imprints you left in my life.i'll remember you forever.in memory.and i'll be praying that you'll be fine and happy there.i didnt have the chance to say anything to you.full of regret.nobody had the chance to.im wondering if you had anything to say to us,before you left.im so heratbroken that this had to happen.but i hope you are still happy.maybe somewhere up there watching over us.please be happy.thats the last thing i can wish for.i love you,-----.thanks for being part of my life for the last fifteen years.i'll keep those in mind.goodbye and take care.love.

Quoted from my dearest cousin, Leng Yen

Hello:).some things cropped up in the past few weeks.in this few weeks,just for 14 days,it was a struggle for me to focus on anything,it is too hard.life is fragile,just like glass,it will break when you accidentally knock it,unknowingly.the news was tragic,it was unexpected.a drop of tear ran down my cheeks,he was so caring,humorous and a pleasure to be accompanied by...so many flashbacks,in my mind.i remembered an incident that happened when i was just 5,i remembered that he pretended to be a pilot,and pretended that his car was an aircraft.he was the greatest man on earth.no words can describe how magnificent he was.but why would his fate make a u-turn,when it was going on well when it was going straight??

0922: the last time i am going to see him...

0927: the brilliant smie i saw, that told me hat everything was alright.

1130: he's gone,to a place much nicer than Earth,where he can enjoy life...

To the magnificent superhero,

How are you?we miss you a lot.you've been a great guy,ever so loving and committed.over 600 people visited you,i am honoured to have you as my relative.you did anyhing that you could to bring fun,joy and happiness to us.no one can replace you in our hearts,no matter how long we live,no mater how far we are,and no matter how hard our life is,you will be in our hearts,from now,till forever.we all love you.

From,Leng Yen

P.S. Thank you for all the words. Thank you for being there for me. Special thannks to C131, Janice, Jeremy, Joanna, TX, Ee Peng, Wei Qing, Pauline & friends from sec sch. Thank you so much.

21st

2009-05-28T17:35:00.005+08:00

Thank you everyone for the well wishes & greetings. My 21st had been a memorable one without any celebrations but with endless unforgettable memories. Thank you everyone. Thank you aunt & 2 uncles for the dinner and birthday cake. I appreciate it. Thank you for being there for us.

Went to collect Daddy's ash and bones in the morning. Did some prayers and later went for brunch with Uncle & Aunt. Went home to catch a nap. I really need more rest. Last 1 week was tough with only a few hours of sleep each day.

Words for Daddy-
Daddy, we still cannot accept the fact that you are gone. Why didn't you visit us in our dreams? We have been waiting for you to enter our dreams since the day you left us. Why did you leave me 1 week before my birthday & 4 more days to your return to Singapore? All of us have break down. Daddy, I just browsed through the photos we took in USA 2 months ago, you looked so fit and strong. You still even went for soccer match every weekends. What had happened to you, Daddy? Let us know. Do you know that life is tough for us without your presence. Daddy, I hope you did heard my eulogy on Tuesday. Daddy, thank you for giving me a good life in my 20 years with you. You have mold me into what I am today. Daddy, I love & miss you so much. You will always be remembered by us. Forever in our heart.

2009-05-27T00:09:00.007+08:00

I really want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for all the condolences. Really a big thank you.

It was a big blow to the entire family. No one expected such things to happen. I flew off to South Africa as soon as possible when we got the news. Our heart just sank to the bottom. Everyone in the family went speechless and what I can see was tears rolling down on each and everyone's face.

When I was on the plane, I just cried and cried. I can't accept it that Daddy's gone just like that. It really hurts me too much. Just imagine that when I last saw him was a month ago, when I sent him off to South Africa training. Sigh. Touched down at Bloemfontein, South Africa. Went to see Daddy at the hospital and also went to the spot where he spiraled down. He got quite a number of bruises on his face. We just cried and cried. Talked to Daddy. But seeing him resting in peace, I felt some comfort. It really hurt us so deep.

On the second day, went to choose the casket for Daddy and also went to pack his stuffs. Pay the last respect to Daddy before he was sent to the airport to take the same flight back as us.

On the third day, took a flight back with Daddy. Arrived in Singapore on Sunday morning. Did preparations for the wake.

The first day of the wake was so packed. There's 300+ people who pay tribute to Daddy. Daddy, I knew you saw all your friends & relatives. The second day of the wake was also packed with 300+ people. Daddy, you are a well respected guy in army. That was what your friends told us. We even call Stanley as kor kor now. We never know you told him so much. You treated him just like a son of yours.

Daddy,
we really miss you so dearly. You left us without a word. It's was really a heartbreaking news to all of us. But don't worry, we will take care of ourselves. We know you are watching us from high above and you will give all of us your blessings. We love you, Daddy. You will always be in our heart. R.I.P

2009-05-24T07:10:00.003+08:00

I am back from South Africa to bring my dad back. Daddy we love & miss you! You will always be in our heart.

Thank you for all the condolences. Thank you everyone from SAF, friends & etc.

Wake will be held at Blk 106 Punggol Field.

Contact me at 90686328 if there's anything.

Daddy I LOVE you

2009-05-20T21:47:00.004+08:00

Flying off to South Africa later at 0205! I don't know when I will be back. Maybe 3 days later. I feel so sad! I will remember this day.

Daddy, I love you.

Thanks for all the condolences.

Birthday celebration cancelled! Pass it around.

Happy Birthday

2009-05-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY boy!

I'm glad and happy that you call me whenever you can because you said you miss me *touched*

I don't want you to know,
so I try to be strong.
I don't want you to think that without you,
I can't go on.
But that's how it is,
and that's how it will be,
because,
Baby,
I LOVE YOU,
I NEED YOU,
I MISS YOU,
and without you,
there's just NO ME.

20 days

2009-05-17T02:19:00.004+08:00

It hurts seeing your loved one leaving you with just a smile. I'm not looking forward to anything but only looking forward to the day when you will be back. 20 days may just pass in a blink of eyes. But I'm the one suffering, wondering how have you been, are you ok and etc. I know you will be suffering with training there but do take care please. I can only pictured you in my mind every seconds.

It really HURTS! *SCREAM OUT LOUD*

Words for thought

2009-05-13T17:30:00.003+08:00

Some thoughts hit me hard since yesterday. I really do wonder did I really neglect my friends and family because of my boy. I felt I really neglect them but what can I do to change? I really don't know. Everyone around me are dear to me. Maybe all these while I'm just neglecting them. Sigh~ I really don't know what to do. I shall stay home when boy is away to Thailand. I don't want to make my friends think that I make use of them when boy is away.

Just let me be EMO!

2009-05-10T23:08:00.002+08:00

Weekend was well spent with boy. He booked out as early as 1730 on Friday. Drove to his camp and he drove back home while I just sit & relax :D Have dinner before going back to his house. He slept at 2130 while I go to bed only at 0100.

Saturday
Yea, he did not have soccer match due to swine flu. Took our lunch before heading to Courts MegaStore. Boy bought me Panasonic Lumix camera for my 21st birthday. Thank you ♥. Thereafter went to Bedok Green Pri as boy having soccer with his friends. I sat there feeding mosquitos ): Back home for shower before going to Ehub. Boy caught me 2 mickey mouse & 1 minnie mouse while waiting for his friends to arrive. Dinner at ECP No Sign Board at 2300. Enjoyed the breeze at ECP after dinner before heading to play pool with his friends. Boy caught me another 3 soft toys :D My house is now filled with more soft toys!! I want to decorate my room with soft toys in my new room. Back home at 0300+. Showered & I dozed off at 0400+ while he only turn in at 0530!

Sunday
Did nothing but lazing around his house. Lunch & back to his room to slack. Left home at 1900 to East Point to have dinner and went to the money changer. I can't accept it that boy is leaving next Saturday. I want next week to pass slower especially Friday & Sunday.

I'm in love with my camera :D

Need feedback/suggestions :D

2009-05-05T02:25:00.007+08:00

Does anyone know of any good digital camera? I thought of getting either

Canon Digital IXUS 990 IS

or DMC-FS15A

Tag me or message me in msn for any suggestions/feedback. Thanks (:

2009-05-04T23:57:00.017+08:00

Happy 50 months being together, boy (: We have a big tiff on Friday, but it was all settled. Sorry for being harsh on my words. I really did not meant what I said. You are really part of my life & I can't live without you. I'm glad that u gave in. Thanks for everything.

Every year with you is sweeter than the last.
You are my endless love. Happy Anniversary!

Last week long weekend was over. It seems so fast, I have not have enough time to spend with you. I want more long weekends with you.

Finally I got to meet bestf today! It was so long since we last went out or even meet up with one another. Girl, thanks for accompanying shop for my heels. I know I'm fussy xD Managed to get my heels & I'm satisfied with it. Late lunch at Waraku and we spent our time discussing on SIM documents & busy catching up. Just love catching up with you too! More meet up ok? (: Walked over to Plaza Singapura from Heeren. Shopped & took a separate train back. Never mind, I'll be shifting back to the EAST soon! I miss East side. By the way, I don't think I suit leaving in the North side. I felt like a loser as I took the wrong train to Orchard from Punggol. I ended up at City Hall instead of Orchard. HAHA. I know I'm a noob. Pardon me!

Bestf, don't be emo anymore ok? Cheer up! You will meet someone better with your excellent character. Remember, when there's no one, there's still ME with you! *sister loves*

I want to spend more time with boy this weekend & next Friday till Saturday night as he will be going Thailand for his course for 3 weeks. I NEED MORE TIME WITH HIM!

Singapore Flyer

2009-04-26T23:43:00.006+08:00

Yes! I finally have the chance to take a ride up the Singapore Flyer with the girls on Friday. Met Joanna in the morning for threading. Headed to Tampines for our lunch with my sister before going back to school. Went to try our graduation attire. After we are done, we went back to Tampines to shop at Tampines One as Joanna have not been there. So we just walked around (: Soon it was time to meet Ee Peng & Wei Qing at City Hall. Took a slow walk to the Singapore Flyer. Bought our tickets and went to Popeye for our dinner first as we wanted to board the flyer wherewe can see sunset. Waited outside for so long because we do not want to share cabin =X After so long of waiting, we finally got it! HEHE. We were so happy & went crazy. Busy taking photos. Half an hour of ride ended. It doesn't look like half an hour ride. Went to MS Mac to slack till 2200 & I took a train to Pasir Ris instead of heading home. After ages, my parents have finally settled for a house & I love my room!

Weekends was spent with boy :) Fetched him from Boon Lay & went to Jalan Besar stadium to watch live game of Balestier Khalsa playing against Gombak. Back to his house after that. Saturday was spent at Queenstown staidum for boy's match! Yeah, he scored a goal :D Back home for his shower & went to Bedok 85 for dinner with his friends & went to ECP to watch soccer but it was so packed & we went to Simpang to watch instead. Home ssweet home.

We actually planned to go for fish spa today bu our plan failed because we did not manage to find the place =X Blame me for not checking before going. Ehub to catch Friday 13th. A bad show! HAHA! No storyline. The sound effects gave me quite a number of shock! Took our dinner & back to his house to pack & sent him back to his camp & drove home with mum (:

Family dinner on 18 April

We ate more desserts than the other dishes :D

My First Experience on Tandem

2009-04-21T01:22:00.007+08:00

I tried on tandem jump. It was my first experience. Actually I don't plan to jump, but after so much of influence from my parents and my dad's friend, I decided to give it a try. I was so scared when I was at the door preparing to jump out. I kept saying I don't want to jump but there was no turning back HAHA. When I jump out, I just close my eyes. But after awhile, I'm not afraid and nervous anymore. In fact I enjoyed myself (: I don't mind doing it again. Now I realized what was my dad's job all these while. Overall, it was a great experienceand I never regret trying it. I have a video of it which will be kept as memories.

During preparation

Waiting for the plane

After the jump :D

Credits to my camera man
I look damn ugly in the air because of the pressure

2009-04-14T15:39:00.012+08:00

Magic Kingdom

Of all places in I have went, I love Magic Kingdom the most. I wish I have more time there to catch the fireworks at night. I wish I can stay there. I really enjoyed my time over there. One day will never be enough to really finish walking the whole of Magic Kingdom. Sister camera run out of battery only at 3/4 of the place. So we didn't take a lot more of pictures ): How I wish there is Magic Kingdom in Singapore. I don't mind visiting it again.

2009-04-05T23:31:00.009+08:00

More pictures are up!

Universal Studio Day
The day spent at Universal Studio was great. We spent the entire day there taking countless of pictures as well as enjoying as many rides as we can. The first ride we took was Spiderman ride. It was fun. While queuing up for the ride, there was this machine which will melt one of the coins we are going to put in. It melted the coin into a oval shape with a pop up spiderman. Walked around & we came across Popeye! OMG! As most of the rides need at least half an hour of waiting time, we saw the waiting time for Popeye ride which was only 5 minutes. All of us got so excited and jumped in to the queue. Guess what?!? The ride made us wet as it was a water ride! All of us were drenched HAHA! We went straight to the restroom to get outselves dry. There was also 1 dryer located outside the ride. Dad's friend paid for it & all of us dry there. But it last for less than 10 minutes. We decided to walk around with the scorching sun to get dry. After a long day, we slacked at Hard Rock Cafe for a drink before heading off for dinner. :D Enjoyed myself.

Images heavy

2009-04-02T21:54:00.012+08:00

Upon arrival

Upside down building

Day 1- Shopping! :D

RAINBOW~ (:

Day 2

Our daily self made waffle for breakfast

Till here at the moment. More pictures coming up (:

2009-03-30T18:47:00.003+08:00

I'm finally back! At this point of time, I don't see the meaning to be back when all you did to me what to disturb me with your words & always testing my pateience. I can't find any meaning behind it. What's the POINT? You just make me piss off & flare up. Why should I be the one to find ways to apologise & you are not the one? I feel that I'm not the one who started everything!!! You think by just switching off your phone solves everything but it doesn't. Just leave me alone then!

2009-03-27T12:05:00.002+08:00

The time now here in Florida is Friday 1206. I actually came online to talk to boy, but he's not online ): I miss him so much. The best part I enjoyed most was the time when I was in Magic Kingdom :D I wish I have more time to spend there. Boy, what time are you going to come online? I need my beauty sleep. It's Friday back home. How I wish I was back home so that I can spend my weekends over at boy's house. Looking forward to return back to SINGAPORE! Pictures coming up when I get home (:

2009-03-16T00:38:00.004+08:00

I have been nothing ever since I'm done with school. I was just purely going out everyday with the same clique. Swimming for 3 consecutive days and I love it :D Swimming was really fun. Went shopping as well. I declared I am broke now. I really need a job but I just can't seems to find a job. I will be staying at home for this week. School for farewell party on Tuesday. Wee~ I'm excited. I will be leaving for US on Friday midnight which is Saturday early morning. Will be away from 21-28 March. On the other hand, I don't feel like going. I will miss my boy for 8 days. Argh~

Pictures time.

** The kimono top made us look like as if we have big tummy!! HAHA

2009-03-01T15:13:00.002+08:00

Bestf, thanks for hearing me out. Thanks for always being there for me. I think what you say was right. Why am I so hot tempered nowadays? It's because of ................

2009-02-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

At last I have settled my project. I'm just hoping for a pass will do, I don't expect much. I'm now waiting for graduation. In the mean time, I'm looking for a job to earn a little as well as to pass time. I definitely can't rot at home all the way till May or even till school starts. This week was a boring week. Didn't went out to anywhere on Friday. Went all the way to Keppel club near Vivo city. Initially boy was having match, but due to heavy rain, the match was cancelled. So we headed to Bugis. Took our dinner before we went for shopping. Back home after that. Reached boy's home so early. I'm so bored now. There's nothing for me to do. I need some night activities. Argh. It has been confirmed that boy cannot spend my birthday with me ):

Alright, I need my shower now Hehe. Meet up with my friends on weekdays. :)

2009-02-19T20:20:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. I have been busy with projects for the past few weeks. Soon it's going to be over & I can enjoy till I get into one of the uni. I hope I can get a part time job for the time being.

V'day was quite enjoyable. V'day is not what I'm looking forward to anymore.

There's so much thoughts in me now. I really do not know what I want in life. I'm glad I have you. But at times you really make me dislike you. The way you treat me is not what I wanted. You was once so caring, loving, sweet & etc. But you've changed for now. You're no longer the same. No one will know how I feel including you. You never know how deep you have hurt me. Really! I agree that when a r/s grows older, the way your partner treats you is no longer the same too. Everything is changing. It's rare that a r/s never dies. I'm tired of everything. What I can do is to take the pain on my own. I thought I can share my pain & burden with you. But I'm totally wrong. Sigh. I don't want to continue anymore. It hurts me deeper if I'm going to continue. Just let my thoughts run wild.

Thanks to Pauline, Joanna & Janice for consoling me all the time. <3

*I want to go for tanning. Anyone? :D

I miss tanning. It has been so long since I go for tanning.

CNY 2009 Memories

2009-02-04T22:39:00.003+08:00

My 2 lovables :)

2009-01-28T22:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! :D

CNY is the same every year. Nothing new. Just the same old routine.

2009-01-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

No meetup with boy for this week as he is in Tekong since Monday till Wednesday. Thursday & Friday will be spend in the jungle as well ): Finally, I went for my rebonding & I'm so broke now. It cost me a bomb. School tomorrow. I can't wait to graduate. On the other hand I don't wish to because I still cannot make up my mind of what to do after I graduate. Studies is sure to be my choice. SIM or overseas studies? I don't want to go overseas but from how dad talked to me, I felt that he want me to go overseas ): I got to make up my mind. Most probably is SIM.

I got this feeling that I miss my bestf so much. So long since I meet up with her. Another girl which is JANICE! Omg. Really ages since we meet up ): My poly friendssss! See you peeps sooon.

Resolutions

2008-12-31T20:57:00.005+08:00

New Year Resolutions Up :)

Better year ahead for everyone
Good health for everyone
Less spendthrift & save it up :D
Graduate from TP & continue studies?
Everlasting relationship with boy
A getaway trip?
A Happy, enjoyable & fun 21st birthday
SLIM DOWN!!

There's more but those listed are the more important ones =p

2008-12-31T15:15:00.003+08:00

A brand NEW YEAR is approaching. I still don't have a plan on where should I go and what should I do later? I don't want a quiet NEW YEAR. Currently I am over at boy's house without him. He went for socccer selection and left me at his house. Have been staying over at his place since 1 week ago (: Parents are away and will only be back tomorrow. Alright, I shall go and complete my report now.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
I hope 2009 will be a better year for all especially for my family.

New beginning
Look ahead
No looking back

leave me alone!

2008-12-27T00:15:00.006+08:00

FINALLY I'm done & got over with it. NO MORE SHIT FROM THEM! Dinner with Joanna, Wei Qing, Ee Peng & Tian Xiang at Miss Clarity Cafe. Outing with them was enjoyable. But now, I feeling dissappointed. Why is this so? Have you ever been in my shoes? I'm feeling sucky. I don't see the effort in you. Since I'm not important by all means. You have put in the least effort for me. Not at all. FUCK!

** Thanks for the gift Joanna, although I have not open it yet till now :)

SCRAM OFF!

2008-12-18T11:09:00.001+08:00

In another 6 days time, I can leave that place. I have enough of it. Speaking is always easy. Who does not know how to speak? So what if it is not the module you are taking care of. So you can tell me off by saying "你自己保重". What the hell! I'm one who treat those words used on me seriously. I don't need you to bother about me also man. Frankly speaking, I have never treated you guys as my supervisor before. You did not even guide us. We need to seek help from others. ARGH! *SCREAMS*

Think twice

2008-12-16T13:27:00.003+08:00

I really can't take it anymore. You are getting on my nerves. I really can't believe that you are such person. You wanted to meet me just because of a CHARGER! Is that CHARGER more important than ME?

I REALLY HATE YOU AT THIS POINT OF TIME!

2008-12-09T21:22:00.004+08:00

Things are not getting any better. It hurts to see my parent going through all these unnecessary burden. How I wish I can ease the burden for them, but some things are just beyond my control. How I wish our life can be changed. No one really understand because you are not in my shoes. I hope I don't break down anytime. I wish life to be better in 2009. 2008 ain't a good year for us at all. 2009 is coming and I'm looking forward to it. I don't want to look back. Thanks to baby & all my girlfriends who are there for me all these while (You know who you are).

Daddy, thanks for getting me Ipod touch for this Christmas during Sitex fair :)

1 month have passed. Boy had finished his bike course which means no more 0800-1700. I can only see him during weekend.

I realized I have not talk to my bestf, Pauline for quite some time. Suddenly I miss her so much! Meet up soon bestf. I have a lot to tell you :D

Get well soon Joanna (: I will be waiting for you to return to work on Thursday. I will be so bored tomorrow without you ):

\edited
At times I really detest you. Games & soccer always come first before me. What if I treat you this way, would you like it? I always sacrifice whatever I can just for you, but did you do the same? NOT AT ALL! Is talking over the phone with me so difficult? If it is, just forget it. I don't want to say so much. It all useless!

JUST LET ME BE

2008-12-02T10:20:00.003+08:00

I am in the office right now. My intention to blog is to wish this sweet & best friend of mine, a HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY to you, JANICE GEE :D

I’m so blessed to have a friend like you for so many years,
This comes with many loving thoughts & warm wishes I send 2 you,
may ur day be filled with laughter.
On this special day may the finest things in life always come your way.

Through thick & thin, we became close. Thanks for always bring there for me and being my friend (:

Enjoy your day to its fullest!

2008-11-29T04:32:00.002+08:00

It's 04040 now and I am still on my bed. Waiting for that stupid boy to reach home before I can sleep because he do not have the house keys. He is still at E-hub playing bowling with his friends. What the hell! Making my blood boils. Argh.

Life is still the same. Miserable as before. 19 more days to go before I can leave that hell place. I really hate it to the core. But I can't do anything now. Get over and done with my project and leave. The problem now is that I have not start on my project. How am I going to complete in in 19 days. I got a feeling I can't make it but I will still try my best. The boy of mine will be soon going back to camp. No more 0800-1700 anymore ): I need to get used to it.

Joanna, really thanks for making my day in that "HELL" place. Without you, I don't know where I will be at now. Thanks for helping me with my work. You're a smart & hardworking girl (: Thanks for accompanying me when I need to work OVERTIME! Thanks for everything. I treasure you as a friend.

Shall continue to wait for that stupid boy of mine! HE only knows how to make me angry. No self-discipline. Forget it. Till here. Toodles.

2008-11-09T01:43:00.009+08:00

Many weeks have passed but nothing changes. Everything is still the same at the moment or even worse. No progress at all. Everything lies on us? I'm not sure and it depends which angle you look on this situation. When can everything end? Sigh! One hurdle after another. I may fall anytime. I know I just got to hang on. Pris, endure for another 34 working days & I'll be free (:

Put all those unhappy things aside. Celebrated Joanna's birthday on 29 Oct. Went to Vivo City. Dinned in at Kim Gary and slacked before we went home. Joanna, I hope you did enjoy your day although the waitress spoiled it when I told him to serve the cake ;D Other than that, there's nothing else to be happy about on weekdays. Weekdays are always bad to be mention. This month, boy is having bike course, which means 8am-5pm. Meeting him on weekdays makes me a much happier girl after a whole day of work (: Weekends was as usual. Stay over at boy's place. Weekends are best for me. I do not have to think much about work. Work really sucks.

Janice, you told me to blog about you. So a short paragraph for you will do :D Your birthday is arriving soon (Random) & I miss you so much la. When will you be free to date me out? I know you will say that I am always the one who is busy. By the way, thanks for always being there for me (:

Joanna's Cake :D

2008-10-18T21:29:00.004+08:00

Finally I have some time to blog. Just back from dinner & I'm over at boy's place. I thought this week would be my last week of attatchment, but I'm wrong. I'm not one of the lucky ones. Yesterday after work was out with intern peeps. Went for steamboat at Bugis as TX will be returning back to school. After dinner, went to the arcade till the clock almost striked 2400. Boy came to pick me up. Thanks baby, for coming all the way just to fetch me home. Peeps, I'm sorry I leave the rest of you there. Went to Bedok 85 as boy wanted to grab something to eat before heading back to his house. Reached his house, took my shower & surf the net while waiting for boy to finish gaming. Slept at 0330 & woke up at 1200 today. Showered & prepared myself before heading to Old Turf City with boy for his soccer match. Was reading newspaper & playing PSP while waiting for boy to finish his match. Dinner at near Simpang & back to boy's place.

I don't feel good staying THERE. How I wish I can leave THERE now. I just feel so stress over THERE. I cried a number of times THERE. I just can't control my tears. I don't think we are in the wrong at all. Sigh. Why we are always in the wrong? Sigh, but I'm really glad I have JOANNA there. Really thank you so much. I just love you to bits & pieces :D You are someone which I can trust. In all my life, it's really hard to find someone I can trust. Sometimes people just wear a mask in front of you without you realizing it. I just hate it. In all my life, there are a few people which I can trust. You know who you are. Thanks for everything girls. I do treasure all of you (:

Some overdue pictures

2008-10-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHU ZHEN

Just like fine wine, you grow better with the years.
May this year be your best ever.
Have a wonderful day and fabulous year.
Hope your birthday is just the beginning of a year full of happiness.
Hoping your wishes come true year after year.

Wishing you all the best in the year to come. May your days be filled with sunshine and beautiful colors. And may your nights be filled with comforting dreams and wishes to come.

I feel bad for not meeting you peeps just now. I'm sorry. Wishing you all the best & spend the day to the fullest. Enjoy (:

2008-09-26T21:33:00.007+08:00

Today was company off day (: Once in a blue moon this will happen. This whole week pass quite quickly. First 3 days of the week did nothing! Yesterday morning just helped to do some packing & later toured around the area near the new office. After the tour, headed to Orchard with the usual interns cliques. Walked around Taka & settled our dinner at Ajisen. Next, went over to Cineleisure to chill. Sat there for around 2 hours. Cam whored with them. Home sweet home next. Wei Qing & I waited for the train for more than 10 minutes. OMG! First time I waited for the train so long. Reached home, took my shower & went to bed. Was so tired. Thanks for the day peeps. I enjoy chilling with them.

Am over at boy's place now. I'm happy that boy book out today and only need to book in only on Monday. I can have more time with him (: Everytime I'm with him, I don't feel the stress. I love his companion. I'm so bored right now. Got nothing to do. Hmm, maybe boy & I should catch a movie later. I hope I don't fall asleep in the cinema =P

Let the pictures do the talking

Intern peeps (:

Us :)

She's one I can talk to <3

I love this pic :D

2008-09-24T23:07:00.007+08:00

You may leave if you don't wish to read what I rant.

I think I need some time to be alone. Stress is piling up! I don't think I have made the right choice or should I say I was not given a chance to choose? I don't know what is wrong with me. I have had enough of tears. I don't feel good at all. Who knows how I feel beside my partner? Unless you are in our shoes. The feeling totally sucks! But Joanna is much more stronger than me la. HAHA! Work was totally a BOREDOM. I don't know how to survive any longer. The word "STRESS" is always lingering on my mind. The moment I wake up, first thing that come to my mind was Can I not turn up for work? I don't know I'm giving myself too much stress or whatsoever resons. Weekends are what I'm still looking forward to. 2 more days and weekends are here again.
A big hug and thank you to those who cheer me up.
Pauline girlf, a million thanks to you! You're still the one who knows me the best(:

Outing tomorrow after work with the interns. I think I love my inters friends especially my parnter, JOANNA! She goes through almost everything with me. She never fails to brighten up my day & trying her best to enlighten me when I felt so stressed up. Most importantly, we love to gossip together also. HAHA. Working isn't easy at all. There are so many things you have to face everyday. Never mind, I will try my best to hang on for another 13 more weeks.

Till here. Toodles. Stay tune to catch my next breath. Some overdue pictures below. Scroll down :D Enjoy!

Boy's POP

Intern peeps

Dinner with family

Jen & I

Yen & I
My 2 lovables
Sister & I

2008-09-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Try it out at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Some parts sound so true to me :D Have fun

2008-09-09T12:19:00.003+08:00

Finally I'm here for some updates. I know it has been some time since I post an entry up & since I have time now, I shall post before my blog start to collect dust. Weekends are always the same. Will always try my best to fetch boy from Pasir Ris Interchange. Weekends are always spend staying over & slacking at his place. I hate Sunday because boy had to book in. I hate the feeling of mine when he leave me & I always drove back home all by myself. Weekdays are always spent in the office. At least I have got mum to accompany me to work & back from work. Now I know, it's so lifeless to be in the working society. Same routine everyday.

Met up with my dearest Pauline yesterday. It was like FINALLY! It has been quite awhile since I last met her. Had a short catch up with her. Thanks for the day my girl. Meet up soon again! xD

Yays~ Today is the day I have been looking forward since boy got enlisted. POP today & blocked leave.

Dad will be back from Australia on 15 Sept. Till here. Photos taken with my friends & cousins some other time. Promoise (:

2008-08-20T09:36:00.002+08:00

I'm in the office currently. Came here to blog specially for XY. You better be touched ok! HAHA. Anyway I came to wish her

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY :D

Wishing you another wonderful year of happiness and joy. Happy Birthday!
The more candles, the bigger the wish.
Wishing you everything happy for your birthday.
I hope that for every candle on your cake you get a wonderful surprise.

Wishing you a very warm Birthday.
Happy Birthday and many happy returns of the day.

Seeya in school on Friday. Last long with your bf (:

2008-08-17T12:37:00.004+08:00

Oh my~ There are so many August babies in my family. First thing first I wanna wish my sister & Jen
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY

May your special day be filled with memories and flowers, friendship and happy hours.
Wishing you all the fun and excitement that only birthdays can bring.
Go you, its your birthday, we're going to party like its your birthday!
You're older today than yesterday but younger than tomorrow, Happy Bday!
Wishing you all the best for your Birthday.
You were born to party.

I didn't have the time to update as I'm busy shifting. At least now everything is over, staying at Punggol currently. Work was totally the same. I want SIP to end soon! So bored of dragging myself to work everday. I don't feel good this week. I doubt this week was not my week. Anyway, it was over. No point brooding over it anymore. I do not want to look back anymore. There are so many things kept bottled up inside my heart. I don't feel good at all. Only a few people know & it is definitely not my family members! I'm going to let it out to boy once he booked out. He knew I don't feel good at all with all the troubles I'm having & he's always there to cheer me up. Boy is still the best! He dotes on me most! NO ONE dote on me more than he does. Not even my family. I can sense that. Enough of all this rantings & please grandma is NOT your maid. I don't want to say much. Just let it be. I'm thankful to those who stand by me especailly a few of my friends. A big thank you to Pauline, Joanna, Janice, SZ & XY.

Time for lunch. Will be back for more updates.

♥♥, IMU
4 more days!

2008-08-09T01:27:00.003+08:00

Just a short & brief update before I turn in.

Work was as usual except that I feel that this week pass a bit slower. I don't feel like going to work. Can anyone tell me what is wrong with me? Argh, I have been dragging myself to work everyday just for the sake of it. How I hope this week was the last week of attatchment. But this week is only the 5th week. 10 more weeks to go. Endure Priscilla! Soon it will be over. I'm so lucky I have Joanna to accompany me, if not I'm sure to fall asleep during working hours. Past few days she was busy with her work so I kept myself busy by busy chatting online =X Anyway, enough of work!

Before I forget,
HAPPY 43 BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (:
I'm so excited to see boy later as he will be booking out later in the evening. Morning will be spend packing my house I guess & shall go & fetch boy when time is up.

Alright, till here. Going to bed now. My back hurts. BACKACHE! Good night peeps~

2008-08-03T00:54:00.003+08:00

I don't feel good at all now. The feeling I'm having now ~~SUCKS!~~ Feeling moody right now. Why boy must be so unlucky to be called back last minute for guard duty? When he received this news, both of our mood totally changed. Boy said that in such situation, he wasted 1 day because if he wasn't called in, he will be reporting at 9pm on Sunday. Despite of this changes, we still went our to catch Money No Enough 2. I have been longing to watch this movie ever since the I saw the advertisements in cinemas. After watching the movie, went back to boy's house. Help boy to pack his bag while he was busying playing with his CS. Aftermath, he went to take a rest & he kept complaining querulously & also telling me that he feels sick. I told him just report & do his duty. Do it now rather than keep dragging it because you still have to do it later. Endure my boy (: I'm always right here waiting for you to be back. No worries. Went for dinner with my parents at Changi Village before sending boy to the ferry terminal. I can't bear to see him leave. ARGH! I hate those feelings. But I got to control myself because I know he don't feel good at all & I don't want him to feel that he had neglected me. I shall not complain anymore & I should be glad that I was able to spent 1 day with him.

This coming 2 weeks will be hectic as I willbe busy packing of stuffs & shifting. I will find time to update if possible (:

3/5 popcorns

2008-08-02T00:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YOU, my dearest cousin, YEN :D

Wishing you all the great things in life, hope this day will bring you an extra share of all that makes you happiest.
Happy Birthday, and may all the wishes and dreams you dream today turn to reality.
May this day bring to you all things that make you smile. Happy Birthday!
Your best years are still ahead of you.
May each and every passing year bring you wisdom, peace and cheer.
You'll always be forever young.

Currently over at boy's house. I'm glad to say that I still make it on time to fetch boy just now. He's getting darker. (: I love his skin colour now. How I wish I was as tanned as him. HEHE. Fetched him, took a cab back to his house for dinner & slacked all the way till now. I think I'm going home soon. It's getting late.

Today's weather is so hot. I'm sweating even though I'm jus sitting next to the fan which is blowing exactly at me!

2008-07-31T21:06:00.002+08:00

Last weekends was well spent with boy.
Caught The Dark Knight with my movie vouchers.
He slept over for 2 days.
Booked in on Sunday.

Work as usual.
Boy will be booking out tomorrow (:
I'm sorry that I won't be able to fulfill the Popeye dinner with you girls. Real sorry.
Count me out on Friday meet up. I don't want to disappoint you girls again!
Most probably going to fetch boy tomorrow after work.

2008-07-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

♥ will be back tomorrow (:

You totally change my mood! You make me not looking forward to tomorrow. Leave me alone!

2008-07-24T22:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TING x2 :D

2008-07-20T16:50:00.000+08:00

5 more days till I get to see my ♥♥

2008-07-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

Yay~ It's gonna be Friday tomorrow, which means weakends are on its way. I can't wait for weekends! But I can't wait for next Friday more because boy is booking out (: Work today was as usual, nothing special. I always feel like dozing off in the office la. I don't know why. But when I got home, I don't feel like sleeping at all. I don't know what to wear to work everyday. Every night before I sleep, I would stare at my wardrobe, looking for clothings. I think I'm running out of clothes to wear to work. But on the other hand, my wardrobe is so messy until sometimes I can't find the clothe I want =X

Anyway, came home after work & I fell asleep on my bed for half an hour while watching the 8pm variety show. Chat with boy on the phone for less than 5 mins on the phone today because his ho ran out of battery ): He sms me saying that he will call me back tomorrow & I hope this is not a lie. Till here for today. Toodles.

I miss my botak boy ):

8 more days till I see my♥

2008-07-15T21:29:00.003+08:00

Work as usual. Stress level rising as days goes by. I'm so worried that I not able to produce my work. But no matter what, I must still try my best to do whatever I can. Friends, sorry to make you people wait for me to go for lunch & knock off. So sorry. I think I'm not leading my life well since attachment started. NO LIFE at all. All I do everyday is go to work, back from work, slack awhile & time for bed. Without boy, it adds on to my NO LIFE days ): All the TP interns were great peeple. This is what I want to say. We have lunch together & also knock off together :D We always had great laughter wheneverwe're together. That's great. I never regret making friends with them (:

Days of getting back to your side is getting nearer. It gonna be Wednesday tomorrow & I'm already looking to weekends once again.

Till here for the moment. Toodles.

10 days till I see my ♥♥

My botak :D
Blissful

2008-07-14T20:57:00.002+08:00

I really need to rant all myy troubles out! So many thoughts running through my head now. I feel so stress over "there". I do not know where to start. I hope & I BELIEVE this 4 months will be over SOON! After so many incidents, I must really conclude that I cannot handle STRESS! Today is only Monday & I'm already looking forward to weekends. I think weekends will only be the days I can relax & have a wide smile on my face :D Weekends means rest days & also I can be with my boy! Life without him is really tough & terrible. I think of him day & night, hoping he is by my side. I'm too dependant on him is what I want to say. I CAN"T LIVE WITHOUT HIM! But wothout him for so many days since he enlisted into army, I still have all my friends & family by my side. My mum always asked me whether boy call me. I know everyone is worried & missing you when you're in there. I need you BADLY right now.

Till here. Shall end here & continue revising on my work. Will be back for more update when I'm free or when I feel like doing so.

Thanks to Pauline, Janice & Joanna for making my day ALWAYS.
BestF, you're always there for me. I know. Thanks for always hearing me rants all my troubles. I love you as my BestF. (:

11 more days till I see my ♥

Don't Bother to Read!

2008-07-09T01:16:00.003+08:00

Boy will be enlisting later & I can't stop crying. I'm so sad that I won't be able to see him for around 2 weeks & more. I'm gonna miss him so much. I know I can't survive without him for this 2 weeks & more. I know I always stick to him wherever he goes. But I won't be able to do so from now on. He won't be able to cheer me up this few days. Sounds too eaggerating, I DON'T GIVE IT A DAMN, JUST LEAVE IF YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE READING! I'm just gonna wait for his phone call every night. I don't want to miss even a call from him (: Will be waiting for your call every night my boy. I hope his 2 battery can last till the day he come out of confinement.

I hope this 2 weeks or so without him will pass very quickly. SIP is VERY STRESS!

Take care my boy! Will be waiting for you, my ♥

2008-07-06T23:26:00.004+08:00

Another week has pass. SIP starts tomorrow & I feel that I'm still not prepared for it. I hope I can manage the work load given by the company. Once SIP starts, I think life would be dull. Everyday I will be going the same routine & worse of all, without boy for 16 days ): I hope this 16 days will pass very quickly & I want to spend my this few days fruitfully with boy(I hope he will spend it with me also).

Friday
No school for the day. Went over to boy's place in the evening. Went soccer with boy @ Upper Changi Road. As usual, played with his friends. Supper @ Simpang with boy's friends & they decided to go to E-Hub. Was deciding whether to catch a movie or go for bowling. In the end, went to catch Wanted the movie. The movie was at 0220. I slept 1/4 throughout the movie. HAHA. Was not used to the timing. That's why. After the movie boy sent me home & took a shower and fall flat on my bed.

Saturday
Went to John Little Expo & dinner at Simei before heading back to my house. Supper with boy's friends at Simpang again. Sent boy back home first before I drove daddy's car back myself. Back home was already 0400. Took a shower & time for bed.

Sunday
Woke up @ close to 3. Slacked in front of my laptop after I woke up. Bath & went over to boy's house. Dinned in at Sakura Downtown East with boy's sister & da sao because boy's was going to the army this Wednesday. Bowling after dinner & his da sao sent me home. I should be sleeping now if not I won't be able to be on time tomorrow. Alright, till here. Toodles.

Will be back for more updates :D

I miss you too BestF :D Meet up SOON! This Sunday perhaps?

2days my♥

2008-07-04T01:22:00.003+08:00

First thing first. HAPPY 3 YRS 4 MONTHSARY with boy (:

Thanks for being there for me all this while.
Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense.
Thanks for pulling me up whenever I fall.
Thanks for all your encouragement when I'm at the weakest point.
Thanks for everything you have done for me.
I <3 you

5days my♥

2008-07-02T01:56:00.006+08:00

A short update before I turn in.

Sunday
Boy brought me to Orchard.
Had Seoul Garden for dinner.
Shopped & home sweet home.

Monday
Pre SIP training.
Had NAPFA test & now my body aches like hell ):
Went to look for boy @ Upper Changi Road as he was playing soccer with his friends.
Dinner @ Bedok 85 & back home.

Tuesday
No school.
Headed to boy's house around 3 as he said that he wanted to bring me out for movie.
Slacked all the way till 7pm and left for Toa Payoh stadium as he went to collect his pay.
Drove me back home to change.
Soccer @ Upper Changi Road with his friends AGAIN. ~~No movie~~
Dinner at 168 and back home. Slacked
I can't stop complaining that my body aches so badly now ):

SIP officially starts next week. I will be attatched to the company for 15 weeks & back to school for my Major Project. Argh, that's relatively sad. But I should be glad that I'm got into another company upon rejected by the first company. I pray hard that I can cope & graduate on time (:

Time for bed if not I won't be able to get up for school later. Toodles.

Pictures taken on Sunday

My ♥

My eyes are tiny & I look fat ):

Before editing & I love this picture

After editing. The colours are so warm (:

7 days my♥

2008-06-26T22:15:00.015+08:00

Monday
Went to school for banking test.
Cabbed back to my house with SZ as she accomapnied me for my interview. Thanks girl.
Back to school to work on my tourism presentation slides. (my group sucks) SZ, I'm sorry I left first.
Toa Payoh stadium to watch boy's last soccer match for S-League before enlistment.
Dinner @ Geylang with parents.
Fall asleep @ my place. Had a hard time waking him up ended up stayed over @ my place.

Tuesday
Cabbed to school & drop boy's @ his place.
Tourism presentation (I think the way I presented sucks big time)
Back home changed & went over to boy's place.

Stayed over at boy's place to look after his nephews since Tuesday as their parents were away. Just got home not long ago while boy went for soccer at Kallang at such hour =.- Last minute had late movie on Tuesday with boy's friends at E-hub. You don't mess with the Zohan was great. The movie was so hilarious. Worth watching & I enjoyed the show. Supper at Simpang before sending boy's friends back. Reached boy's place, showered and time for bed.

4.5/5 popcorns

Wednesday
Did nothing much.
Woke up, showered & bought boy's nephews to Mac for their dinner.
Boy's soccer @ Upper Changi Road with his brothers.
Back to boy's place for dinner & showered.
Slacked & time for bed.

Today

Was slacking since I woke up.
Brunch.
Continued on my banking presentation slides.
Boy went for soccer.
Slacked again before I get back home.

I screwed up my interview
I screwed up my test
I screwed up everything
~~I'm upset ):~~

Below are some of more pictures taken on 14 June 2008 with my secondary friends

I know I look ugly in this pic

13days my ♥

2008-06-20T16:38:00.003+08:00

Just a short entry before I leave my house (: Ever since holidays started, there are only a few places I will be. At home being a couch potato, boy's place or at the staidum watching boy's soccer match. Holidays are coming to an end. That's ): I hope next week of school will be short.

Monday- Banking test, SIP interview & other group banking project presentation

Tuesday- Tourism presentation

Wednesday- ???

Thurday- ???

Friday- My group bankingproject presentation & UIR presentation

Dinner at Changi Village last night. After dinner, I told boy to drove in to the carpark where those AQUAS will be. Getting lesser & lesser AQUAS located at that place. Only saw 2. 1 with a man face & 1 woohoo~ HAHA. After that boy boguht me to E-hub for bowling. While waiting for our turn played Photo Hunt. I like Photo Hunt game. When it was our turn, some teenagers who queued in front of us used our lane instead of the lane beside ours. Their group was huge la. So inconsiderate & they sat at our seats. Boy was quite unhappy & he went to request to change lanes. Waited quite long for our turn. Played 3 games each. I'm starting to like bowling although I bowled like shit :D Got home around 3am. Took my shower, played PSP till 4 and time for bed.

Random pictures taken on 14 June. Secondary school class gathering (:

Till here. Going over to boy's house & maybe going to TM for some shopping. I HOPE! xD

2008-06-08T14:14:00.003+08:00

I'm still kicking & it's just that I do not have the time to post for the past few weeks :D Was busy rushing for my assignments. Spell H-O-L-I-D-A-Y with me now. I'm happy to be having my holidays now. Woo~ Finally projects came to an end. But there's presentations and test after the 2 weeks break ): So I shall enjoy my holidays & think about my test & presentations only on the last few days before school starts. I can't wait to stay away from school, but during the holidays, I have got nothing to do because boy has got to attend training while girlf was busy with SIP and my classmates have their own schedule & that dearest J is always busy and got no time to meet me(HAHA). So I think I will be staying home with sister to prepare to post on our shopping blog. That's so BORED! Gym with the girls on every sunday was fun. Can't wait to meet them especially girlf. I love hanging out with her. She fill my day with laughter(ALWAYS) (: Till here. I feel like taking a nap now. TIRED. Will update soon *promise.

I want to catch some movies. I have miss so many nice movies. All thanks to BOY who is always lazy to bring me out & doesn't want to bring me out ):

Keep coming back for more updates. Readers help to click on my advertisements at the top of this entry. Thanks peeps :D

2008-05-23T00:55:00.007+08:00

I realised I'm into less blogging nowadays. Mainly because I have nothing much to blog about(I'm lifeless), lazy to blog and lastly I'm slowly losing interest in blogging ):
Boy's birthday celebration was a success :D I hope he had enjoy himself there. Thanks god that Monday was Vesak Day which means I can stay over. Stayed up till 4am & I just knocked off on the bed while the rest of boy's friends were playing. Some left while boy and 2 other of his friends slept at 7am. Wild Wild Wet at 12pm after our brunch. Finally I got to step into the pool. I love staying in the pool under the scorching sun. Escape Theme Park was next since 4 of us got nothing to do. Played till 7pm and back to the chalet for dinner. The guys were busy starting up the fire while I'm busy washing all the pots and utensils. The guys took more than an hour to set the fire. By the time, I'm already starving. After dinner, helped to clear up the place before boy's friends left. Last minute, boy decided to stay over for another night so called my dad and seek permission. Dad agreed to let me stay over. School at 11am the next day but I skipped lecture. End up, turning up in school 1 hour later for 3 hours of tutorial and back home.

Pictures taken during boy's birthday

Boy's graduation ceremony was held on Wednesday. Did not went for the ceremony as I went swimming. Only took photos with him after the ceremony. Back to his house aftermath. This week was rather slacking. UIR was E-learning. I still do not have the urge to work on my projects and assignments. Save me please. I'm looking forward to holidays. That's all. After holidays will be the days for attatchment ):

Pictures taken on boy's graduation day

Time for bed. Toodles.

2008-05-16T21:15:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since I touch on my blog. 4 weeks of school just pass like that. I have just choosen the company for my attatchment. I hope I can get in to my choice and at least have someone I know with me. Days were all spent in school, projects/assignments and with boy. At times, time is really tight. But I have managed to go through everything. All I can say was that school was a dread. Vesak day falls on Monday, which means public holiday :D Boy's birthday celebration at Down Town East this Sunday. I can't wait to stay over and have fun HEHE. I'm so happy that there's no school on Monday. Yippie! Time to relax. Bought him a Creative Zen mp3. Hope he likes it & take GOOD CARE of it. Heading to gym with bestie later! Woo. I'm in love jogging on the trackmill. I'm awaiting for SUN-TANNING & SWIMMING sessions! Anyone?
Alright, I shall hit the sack now & replenish my energy for gym later. Good night (:

2008-04-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

First week of school had finally past. I think I somehow like my timetable. One thing I dislike is that everything is going at such a fast pace. It was only week 1 and I can feel that I'm starting to become restless. Enough of school, let's move on to my weekends for now. My weekends was spent doing nothing at home. Had dinner over at Changi with my family. I love to have dinner with my family because I can meet up with my 2 dearest cousins. At times, I really reminisced the past when we were at my grandma's house. Today was another boring day. Went to shop at TM with my mum while my dad go for his soccer game. Sometimes I really dislike weekends. I'm contradicting. I dislike weekends due to that stupid boy of mine! He doesn't have time to accompnay me, which I ended up staying at home doing nothing. I also like weekends as I can stay away from school (that's my main purpose :D). I'm so bored right now. That boy of mine went to his friend's birthday chalet. Speaking of him makes me sad. At times he really makes me dislike him. I dislike him for not keeping his words. Why can't you keep your words? You always say you wanted to meet me later, but in the end, you didn't. If you already plan you're going to meet me or not, just let me know. I hate this feeling. I'm always so eager to meet you, but in the end, ............. I really hate it. This type of feelings will not be felt by anyone else, unless you have faced this situation before. It really hurts to accept an empty promise. Sigh. I'm getting emo. Till here then. Will be back for more updates (:

2008-04-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

First day of school was fine except that we were already given our assignment. I think these 8 weeks of study will past very fast. I just got to bear with it. I think banking is a little boring. But I never regret taking it because that was the elective I wanted to get in so much. So I shall put in my effort as from when I'm young, I always hope to work in a bank when I grow up :D Till now, I never change my mind but maybe perhaps some other time, I have got other better interests. Shall see how it goes & decide on my career. School just started & I beginning to fall sick. I think boy pass the flu virus to me & I'm having blocked nose for the entire day since yesterday. Other illness is also slowly destroying my body. I could not sleep well last night as I'm having seriously blocked nose & I got to breathe through my mouth & my throat was so dry that it hurts =X I need some water beside my bed tonight. I feel the heat on my body. I don't want to fall sick. School later at 1100. I need some rest now. Shall turn in now. Toodles.

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost. (Quoted from Janice)

2008-04-20T00:54:00.002+08:00

Curently blogging at boy's house. He is watching MAN UTD match while I'm glued to his computer xD Today mark the end of my long vacations. School will be starting tomorrow. I really don't feel like going back to school, I don't know why. I always have this feeling after my long holidays. I don't like school because of all the assginments. But I do not have a choice. I hope my time table is finalise by now. No lessons on Thursday but Friday is fully packed. Should I be happy or upset over it? School has yet to start and I already here ranting =X Alright, I just feel like going for shopping before school starts. I want to spent my last day of holiday fruitfully. I hope my last year of studies will be smooth sailing and time to pass faster. I'm so worried over my SIP now. I have got no idea why am I feeling this way now ): Accompanied boy to Toa Payoh stadium for his match. I sat there for 4 hours while listening to songs, play my psp and watching boy playing soccer. Dinner at grandma's house. I miss too many family dinner with my cousins, finally I meet up with them today. I miss them lots. Have a great time with them just now & I just love them to bits and pieces. Alright, till here. Toodles.

2008-04-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

I'm back from my trip. Boy paid for my trip(Thanks baby). Our trip was alright, just that we did not take a single photo when we're there. What we did there everyday was just merely shopping. Did not really have the urge to shop. Bought some clothings, that was all. Last night I slept over at boy's place. I went over to his house to accompany him for the MAN UTD match. In the end, I fell asleep while playing PSP. I slept throughout & that boy of mine refused to wake me up. So I ended up sleeping at his place. I'm so lucky that my parents did not give me a scolding. Went home at 2pm because I thought SIP/MP briefing was at 3pm. In the end, my friend told me it was tomorrow. See how blur am I. So I was left being a couch potato the whole afternoon. I've got no PSP to play with because I left it at boy's house. I'm so reluctant to say that school will be starting next week. I don't feel like returning to school. Boy's graduation will be held in May, next would be his birthday and last but not least will be his enlistment. This would be all for this entry. I'm running out of words for all my entries.

2008-04-07T21:09:00.002+08:00

My life was so lifeless. What I did during the weekends was purely working in JL expo. I was called up by Li Juan to work for Hume/Define ladies shoes on Friday & weekends. I agreed to work for them. Working with her was fun. She always crack jokes. Weekdays was spent playing PSP. Boy has got training and friends was busy with their own things. This weekend will be the last time I'm working before school starts. School is starting & boy is enlisting into army soon. I want him to have an unforgetable for his upcoming 21st birthday. Till here. Time for my dinner. Will be back for more updates soon.

2008-04-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

Yesterday marked the end of John Little Bazaar. Working there was great although the heat there was unbearable but overall I still enjoy working there. I miss the people there. Was asked work for JL expo on the 3rd-13 april but I rejected it. I was kind of tired from standing for long hours. Yesterday my parents came down and my mum helped me to keep all the shoes which are on display. HAHA. Now that I'm free from work, I want to go sun tanning and shopping. But there is someone who is MIA. That girl is Pauline. Didn't see her online for the entire day. I wanna go out with her. I miss her xD Till here.

2008-03-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm here for a short update since Pauline said that I have not blog for a long time HEHE. Had been working lately and that seems so lifeless. At the last minute, I was told to work till the John Little Bazaar end. It will only end at the and of this month. Working on the first day was hectic and my legs were breaking. It was extremely hot until most of the ladies promoter face turned red HAHA. The manager & supervisior of John Little were friendly. The next few days of work was alright. I'm slowly getting used to the long hours of standing. Sales were bad. Yesterday boy came down to fetch me after his training. He waited for an hour before I knocked off. He went roaming around. We spent $51 from the Bazaar.
I am really sad today :( I don't know what is happenning to us today. Maybe our mood wasn't good today. Am I really asking too much from you? This is always a question mark to me every now & then. I hate this kind of feeling I'm having now. After I knocked off from work the other day, although I'm tired, I still went over to your house to accompany you. So what's the big deal of coming to fetch me? I have got no idea. Can't you put in a little more effort to spent more time with me before you get enlisted to the army. I really can't think of a reason for not spending time wih me. All you can tell me was that you're tired. Then what about me? I PROMISE you I will fetch you from training after the 31st of this month. Since you said that why not I fetch you. I will fetch you then! Just see. I still need to attend school when school reopens, whereas you do not need. So can't you just spend more time with me? Is that what I'm asking for so difficult to accomplish? Sigh~ Saying so much does not even help. Till here then. Shall go & dry my hair and time for bed. Working tomorrow :)

All I can say is I MISS YOU

2008-03-13T20:33:00.002+08:00

I was being a couch potato at home for the whole day. There's nothing to do at home. Lucky boy left his PSP at my house the day before yesterday. Boy was with me since he finished his training yesterday. He stayed over at my house till 3am and he went home. Yesterday was at home with boy being a couch potato as well. SEE! When he had his training in the early morning, he will spent more time with me (: Back to today, packed the house again! Threw a lot of furnitures. The house seems so empty not. Not used to it. HAHA. I promised to work for BHPC at Tampines on John Little sale/promotion this weekends and Monday. Working schedule was out. 10am to 11pm during the weekends and 10am to 10pm on Mondays. I hope I won't die from standing for so many hours. Meet up with bestie tomorrow. I have waited so long for us to meet up. FINALLY! Till here.